sometimes transition is not easy for me
in birthing or in life
i can feel lost overwhelmed and unsure I can accomplish the task at hand
can i meet what is coming towards me
the immensity of change
in a breath i am very casual about it all
and sometimes it seems i will breeze through it cheerfully and singing
{this time i will apply all precious knowledge and it will be cake}
and in the next breath i am swamped
by emotions anxiety confusion fear
and helplessness may pop up to join the tea party
this lifestyle i embrace and choose wholeheartedly
has one major difficulty
which is presently with me
transition
finding my centre amidst the change of circumstance.
we are having a pause of some months from being on the road
and i am excited to nest and craft and garden and socialise and sing
and be part of our community
but
first i have to get back from my trip west
and then reintergrate family as we reunite with papa after a month apart
and then arrive in Bellingen
and get used to being parked up in the gloriousness of our friends property
and get into the rhythm of school and lunchboxes and bus stops
and get myself reintergrated and adapted to this next chapter
i think i am contracting inwards
and it hurts abit
i feel better when i go for a walk or a swim in the pristine clear Bellinger river
or when i load up the wheelbarrow and do numerous loads of shifting garden debris
or when i am held in my loves embrace
in moments i think i am really here
and then poof
i am not
this transition takes time
one week is not enough to get my head around it
and rediscover who i am and how i interact here now
i feel more ungrounded this moment than when i am actually in motion traveling
somewhere inside i trust i will come in and feel at ease
and centered and present again
somewhere i know the reality of jetlag
and climate shift
and daylight savings
and external influences
and somewhere i know its moving house again
we all know how incredibly trying that task is
once i wrote traveling is like mini moving house every day
yep
and i love it
once i had spilled all my tumultuous anxiety about this phase to a friend she asked
why do you do it to yourself?
i said
i love it
i love the adventure
the stimulation
the expansion
the freedom
the nature
the change
the time together
the discoveries
it’s worth it.
once someone wise taught me a game to play at stressful times where
i imagine myself into the future
i am asking myself
“so Roselinde, how did you cope with that challenging time?”
and often the qualities i need to embrace are revealed to me
“well, i made sure i ate and slept well, i reminded myself it’s a temporary situation, i tried to maintain my humour, going for walks,
i asked for help and kept on deep breathing and i used my flower essences”
it is so so pretty here in the valley in spring
the beauty of nature helps
how do you help yourself get through challenging phases?
what helps you transition?
when do you feel centred?
RosaLindenTree 